Monday, 30 January 2012

Snowy days...

Brrrrrrrr.... its so cold at the moment. The snow has finally arrived here and bringing with it my winter cold. So feeling a little sorry for myself with all my aches and pains, tissues at the ready and revolting cough medicine at my side. I struggled on for a few days, running the children back and forth, filling the fridge up, cooking up some meals in case I got worse, so I could just pop them in the oven. I managed to get my study done and my time in school.
Then it just floored me, this little cold of mine, I gave in, I watched the weather change and turned up the heating, pulled out my favourite quilt and hit the sofa...
I managed a couple of hours, all cosy and sleepy, the puppy curled up at my feet like a little hot water bottle...I even watched a movie, well I sleepily watched a movie, the guilt I felt of lying down, even thou I was ill, overtook me. What is it about us mothers, why do we not allow ourselves the time to heal ourselves?
If our children or loved ones got ill, we would make a warm nest for them to hunker down in and feed them healing chicken soup, read to them and hug them until the illness has passed by. However when we are ill, the caretaker, the cook, the provider, we soldier on, making ourselves worse and grumpy in the process. No use to anyone really and the example we give the children is not a good one, we should take care of ourselves and drop this silly guilt.
So for the first time in years I let this guilt go...It was not easy...I looked after myself, I fed myself and allowed myself to be looked after. I slept when I needed to, I had long hot steamy baths in the evening when the boys had fallen deeply asleep, I stayed in my PJs and the sofa became my cosy place.
So after a weekend being fed nice food, being given the time to fall asleep when tiredness overtook me, managing a little hand sewing and some knitting time whilst curled up next to the fire, letting go of this guilt has been good for all of us, the children are happy and whilst I am still sniffing and coughing I do not feel angry and frustrated, I feel rested.

I believe guilt is such a curse for us mothers and I want to always let it go, I know I cant, but a little bit at a time, well it helps...

PHOTO'S 1) View from the Kitchen window, all snowy hills. 2)Lap tray of hand sewing, little corsages in the making. 3) Finished spring corsage. 4) Cutting out Spring Bunnies 5) Easter Book Covers.

8 comments:

Claire said...

Hey Suzie, sounds like you really needed to spend time looking after yourself........the guilts are hard to let go of, but your health is much more important.

Hope you are feeling alot better now.

The photos are lovely, what a view from your kitchen window....just gorgeous. Love the corsages and the bunnies are cute as........

Take care,

Claire :}

Gillian said...

You are totally right about motherly guilt. We are never allowed to be sick are we. The corsages are beautiful.

Thimbleanna said...

I'm sorry you haven't been feeling well -- I hope that the little rest has helped. Love that cute bunny at the end! And your cute header -- two peas in progress!

Pene said...

Those corsages look lovely, I'm ploughing through making teacup pincuchions at the moment. Have just finished another stack of crochet cases then onto kindle covers. Craft fair 12 days and counting arghhhhhhh..Haven't even started thinking about easter!

It's freezing here too although we just have heavy frost (yes still at 4pm!!)
Hope your fully recovered soon big hugs to you all
Pene and Daisy x

Amanda Makes said...

Hi Suzie! So glad you're on the mend chick. I'm madly impressed that even whilst feeling ill you're still getting your act together for Easter! Fabulous! I'm not even ready for Valentines yet!!! Loads of love, xxxx

Michelle said...

Glad to hear you're feeling better and thank you so much for your lovely comment on my blog xx

Kitty said...

I'm glad you let yourself be cared for - you're right, we are very bad at it in general. Hope you feel back to 100% very soon :) xx

Locket Pocket said...

I hope you're feeling much better now Suzie xxx