Tuesday, 4 October 2011

Blowing in the wind...

A person post...
Indeed life is testing but I was truly blessed with a weekend full of memories that I will be able to draw on as we go into the colder crisper days ahead. Things get on top of me sometimes and I feel like I am wading through fog as I cope with so many changes, as a whole I am a positive person but these last couple of years have really shown me how quick your life, with no choice of your own, can turn your world upside down. Not to be too down in the mouth all the time I do need to say it has also given me moments of feeling completely alive and living right in the very moment. Its given me a one off opportunity to get the life I want, that I was maybe too scared of the unknown before or simple just in too much of a comfort zone to make changes or take any chances.Things change here on a weekly basis, I am rolling with those changes now, they don't scare me much anymore, sometimes I even embrace them. A few simple fact sees me through, I love my children and they will always be my priority, but I have learnt that I count too. If I am balanced I mother better and see the direction I want my life to go in despite others trying to take away our pride. I have found the last few weeks so testing as the summer ends and I accept my role in society as a women trying to provide for her children, a single parent. I was so close to making my sewing a proper business, to be able to work with my hands and put food in our tummies and keep us warm. The dream is not given up on, I have orders to fulfill and opportunities just keep popping up. I need to combine and multitask like never before. I encourage my children to follow their dreams yet responsibility and conformity have won on this point for me and my little family. So was it just a coincidence that as I settle to this change and the melancholy I feel to the change of the season the weekend brings me sunshine, time with a loved one and friendship.
Rosy the pup found her sea legs and totally enjoyed the experience as we plunged through the calm sea waters with the wind in our faces...
Paddling and then swimming in the clearest of waters on the 1st October. Rosy the pup played with her doggy friend on the beach all day as happy as dog should be with freedom to play, pounce and dig.
I looked at my surroundings and felt peace fill my soul.
I saw the colours of summer turn to the richness of autumn and it made me smile...
As the light of the day seemed to end too soon. At the close of the day good food, drink and a warming fire was shared with friends. Yes I learnt that around every corner of the pathway of our lives we are given just what we need to lift our heart and soul. A busy week ahead with lots of meetings and yet more new experiences to work through, also a very nervous time as my eldest son goes in to hospital on Thursday. These memories will keep me calm.
Of course with all this personal chatter I am aware that I sound like I am not creating, don't worry I have not lost the plot, my sewing is part of my everyday day life and indeed without this creative living I would be in a sorry state. So it being October and with my felt box out to play I have been 'bat'ting a few ideas around.
A while ago I knitting some adorable bats for my little ones, but when I saw a photograph of these pretties I thought I must have ago myself, so off I went and made a couple before before I was happy with the design... and after an afternoon of cutting, sewing and stuffing... here are my bats.

I have been asked to make some pumpkins to go with them... er, need to go and play again to see what I can come up with. I thank you for your comments and emails, your support is such a special thing and sometime I just have to be a little more personal than crafty...


5 comments:

Devonmama said...

I hear what you're saying about embracing changes, a topic near to my heart at the moment. Glad to hear you're enjoying the sea still, such beautiful photos! Your bats are great too, looking forward to seeing the pumpkins :) x

Debby said...

You have had to go through so much. You have a good outlook and I am hoping things work out for you. I can sure tell that you are the happiest near the sea.
I hope your son will be okay. That is stressful in itself. Prayers for him and (((((HUGS))) for you. My granddaughter loves bats. Your doggie is so cute.

lazylol said...

Wow what a beautiful blog header.
You have a great attitude to coping with your new life, I just know things are going to turn out well for you. Hugs to you & your boy for the hospital trip - it will be over and done in no time x

wonderwoman said...

thanks for popping by my blog - i love your bats - they are sooo cute!

xxx

Ash said...

Keep at it lovely!! It helps me to cope a little better too reading of someone with such similar emotional traumas!! Can't believe there seems to be so many of us out there coping with broken hearts and lives. Still like you, I begin to learn to find the silver linings, today I will visit a good friend to see if she can sort my sewing machine out- spinning I'm fine with, but can I get the sewing to run right!! Nah!! :) I'd love to be able to touch the sea as you are but I do have the rivers and hills (and the rain today!!)Hey ho, ever onwards, best wishes.